Friday, January 28, 2011

Not the same, but still sweet, and enough....

Found out Wednesday that "my" new apartment wouldn't be mine!  Current tenant doesn't have a new place lined up (maybe never did?!?!)!

So, went to see an option that IS available, as the tenants have actually already moved!

No back or front deck.......although some advantages over where I was thinking I was moving! Timing is still targeted to be the that is a huge plus!

So I can hopefully get settled soon without having to settle for just anything. 

Monday, January 24, 2011


Downsizing my living space (although the next apartment is sweet and just enough, and has a back deck).

Downsizing my household goods via donations.

So, presently doing more actual planning and packing than "musing"!

Hoping for Feb 15th; some parts of coordinating the process are out of my hands. So be it.  I will have my boxes ready to go!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Hollow words....

She said "vicious and mean-spirited"....

If they were even her own thoughts/words, they are at best not really about the present, nor about my action.

They are hollow words, but they still have an echo.

I saw the emotion on her face and in her posture as she left that real emotion showed up for sure.....this is a good thing.

Yet, how she has that emotion explained/labeled/attributed to an action of mine is not part of any logic nor reality of the present.

Silence was not an option....someday she may see that. Silence was the old way; I told the facts of what happened to me to another person who needed to know so precautions could be taken to rule out a repeat (or worse). I told when it was clear she was going to put others at risk because she "didn't think" anything would happen. I quietly warned her I would be making the call and why.

And I would do it again.

I do not live in the frozen silence anymore. Realizing that for certain is a gift of this experience. I must say, I would have preferred a much less disruptive illustration of that fact...!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Isn't it "Seven Swans A-Swimming"?

Isn't it "Seven Swans A-Swimming"?  Must be the after Christmas reductions....

On a river in a city in New England the day after a blizzard 2011....

Tuesday, January 11, 2011



Not sure what I will end up doing here; we shall see together. 

I am on the verge of so many changes -- so many shifting ideas, inspiration I need to capture....

So, I birthed this blog!